it has been over a month since i move to Dallas, and thought i shld pen something down. Crazy weekend...3 exams next week. NO FUN!!!!
things were going crazy with all the moving in at first; getting furniture, getting around, meeting new people--- in short, getting ready for school. This definitely reminds me when I first move to Austin. And of course, this make me understand and acknowlege that moving is one of the stressors in life. Yeah, moving is exciting where you get to be in a new environment, meet new people etc. but still it can be stressful.
I am more and less settled down here in Dallas, making new friends, classes and daily routine. I am pretty much into the flow of things in my life. But, I wld not say my life is a routine for things do act up sometimes. I am glad that I found a christian fellowship that I really like, and the people there are cool and fun to hang out with. Yes, I just came back from fall retreat. It was amazing... I wish it cld be longer though. Sermon was good, worship was fantastic... meeting new people was superb. It was simply the love of Christ that brought people together, isnot that awesome? The part that I really like was the campfire where everyone shares about what communion means to them and take communion together as one body. :)
I was being asked if I would rather stay in U.S or go back home after graduation. For now, I would prefer staying in the U.S; not because I feel Americanized but rather there is a feeling that you cant explain with words; it seems like you are being suck into the system. When will I decide to get out? Hmm.. let me think. Until legal actions come against me for expired visa or I-20 or when I have enough fun. In short. Its plain curiousity that held my feets to the ground. Honestly, I have never seriously thought about the answers to the question before. Probably its a way of escape, or getting comfortable with the lifestyle, or it can maybe be the desire to be independent and matures. When you are all alone in a foreign country, you truely see the grace and hands of God in your life. Not saying that its all going to be easy times; but it is during these tough times that you know that you have someone to run to and a pair of loving arms to depend on. Probably this is the reason why i want to stay here... getting out of comfort zone and be challenged in many ways (though its not very fun most of the time).
How many times you hear people saying "curiousity kills the cat"? In other words, the world is saying it pays a price to fufil one's curiousity. Being curious is not a bad thing, but curiousity means taking risk. Risk to many people is scary. WHY? Many people fear of the unknown, and dont know where their curiousity is going to lead them or maybe the fear of losing their security. My point here is the fact that the world lacks of love and security drives more people to take a step back from taking risks. But, if you know there is a loving Daddy God who will never leave you nor forshake you; would you make a different choice in your path? Think about it for a moment..... This reminds me of one of my motivating factors that makes me decide to come to U.S on 12/31/2007. (Boy, it has been a while) Knowing how much I am loved and forgiven by Jesus's crucification on the cross gives me courage and boldness to step in a foreign land even when I do not know what to expect (except the grace and love of God in my life. Yes thats sufficient!!!). It was exciting to me, and still is to me. The love of God will never cause you to lose your path. In fact, the love of God will lead to you the right path... meeting the right people at the right time. Jesus is more than a God. HE IS MY FATHER WHO LOVES ME DEARLY. THANKYOU DADDY GOD FOR THIS AWESOME LOVE that I sometimes take it for granted. hee.
good night y'all!
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