I am officially back in Singapore.

being blessed with good food and awesome company from friends and family

yet i felt some part of my heart remains in the states.

not because I choose to adopt a whole new identity

but rather I am left with a state of confusion and anxiety in this brand new environment

dealing with water retention is no fun!!!

my only option is to READAPT!

I think what sucks the most is...

I realise that my feelings for you become even more real

I wouldot want to admit that I have feelings that is beyond something called friendship for you

why?

its simple--- I am afraid

it is a nice and warm feeling thinking about you; what makes it sucks then?

the feelings of facing my own fears make this whole thing sucks.

living in self-denial makes me long for you even more as each day passes.

i am drawn towards that feeling  yet I detest it the same time.

i am becoming more freaky

because i dont know what it is better...

but only to trust God to make everything beautiful in His time.

i miss you.

i really do.

even when you are beside me I still miss you.

Daddy Daddy Daddy God!

You hear my cry and frustrations.

-sing along session-

Hallelujah

we praise you Jesus

we thank you

for the cross...

your grace teaches me to love

and never stop loving

your grace humbles me

knowing that my security is in you

your grace embraces me like beaming fire

that will never stop gleaming

your grace captures my soul

believing that your mighty hands are in control

your grace empowers me to succeed in life

because I know that I am called;

Destined to Reign.

Nails did not keep you on the cross,

but your Love for me did.

thank you Abba Father

I praise you God!